“It’s better to be a failure at something you love
than to succeed at doing something you hate.”
Good morning again! Well today is my day off. Yehey! Just kidding, it’s not my day off, actually I already resigned on my work. That work that I’ve been struggling of for many days (2 weeks to be specific). Wanna know why? Number one reason is I’m not happy anymore with it. I will tell you one by one the reasons why I decided to resign.
What underemployment means? According to investorwords.com underemployment means a situation in which a worker is employed, but not in the desired capacity, whether in terms of compensation, hours, or level of skill and experience.
“Ngayon, kung ikaw ay nasa isang propesyon na hindi mo linya, hindi ka magiging masaya”, Ptr. Ed Lapiz said. Very well said, I agree I’m not happy. I’m a registered nurse and I entered a job as secretary. Most of the time I’m handling paper works – typing documents, printing, xerox, scanning, sending emails, etc. We also do travel to different places because the working field is about real estate. Real estate on my own understanding and by my experience is buying and selling of commercial or residential land or building.
I feel that I am more in line in caring a person (read Day in the Life of Riza as Private Duty Nurse) than facing computer and papers inside an office. I need to follow my heart and intuition.
Someone expects you to be someone you’re not. My boss has full of lies in his life. King of Lies kumbaga, walang araw na he will not tell a lie. Ooops! Sorry I’m labelling him a bad character. He received many calls every day from different people he has borrowed money before. Most of the time he will not answer the call and if he does he will promise to pay on a given day but eventually he will not. So what will happen is that person will call him again that day and he will not answer and if he does he will promise to pay on a given day until that person will go to his house but he will not appear. Family members, maids, driver and even I will also force to tell a lie to cover him. Like telling he went on province for a vacation, transaction or anything but the truth is he is just inside. Sometimes he will ask me to answer his phone and be his spokesperson and will tell that his inside the bank but again that’s a lie.
According to Marc and Angel Hack Life the bottom line to stop worrying about today is that “The more passion you have for your work, the more value you will create through it. And value is ultimately what people are willing to pay a premium for.”
2. No overtime pay
I’m in the office at 8:00 am and expecting to go out by 5:00 pm. But it just happens once in a life time. Instead of working 8 hours only I work a maximum of 16 hours (meaning my work ended by 12:00am). In short, I work overtime with no pay.
Yung oras na dapat ay nakauwe na ko ng house, makakasabay ang pamilya sa pagkain, makapunta sa ibang lugar with friends, makaattend ng mga church activities, or anything na pwede pang gawin before matulog ay di ko nagagawa. Buong araw ko ay puro trabaho lang. 4 hours of sleep, 2 hours of preparing myself for work, 2 hours of travelling to office and 14-16 hours of work a total of 24 hours. If you will notice I only have 4 hours for myself and don’t have time for other activities (social, spiritual). I don’t have a balance work with necessary rest. WALANG KAPALIT yung oras na nawawala sakin sa bawat araw.
3. No holidays and no double pay
Even May 1- Labor Day we still work, if we will not work that day our boss will deduct our salary. Even though we work on holiday we don’t receive a double pay.
I will not tell here exactly the illegal works that were happening inside. I know it’s not right and it always bothers me that I’m involved in doing that. I can consider my first, second and third reason but this I can’t anymore. I am battling against myself, half of myself says it is okay and my other half says it bad. It’s better to choose to listen to your inner voice.
Yesterday was 15th of the month but I didn’t receive my whole salary “O eto lang muna, next sahod mo na lang yung kulang“, my boss said. Well kanya na yun. I can’t wait for another 15 days to get my whole salary, I don’t want to battle anymore against myself. But still I’m struggling asking myself “Where will I go?” So I asked for God’s wisdom on what to do. I asked him to help me to decide on what to choose today –to continue with my work because it gives me an income (and sahirap makahanap ng trabaho) or not because it gives me an unhappy life.
On Proverbs 24:1-2 (NIV)
Do not envy the wicked,
do not desire their company;
for their hearts plot violence,
and their lips talk about making trouble.
So after I received His answer I was really decided to give up my work.
Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord,
“plans to prosper you and not to harm you,
plans to give you hope and a future.
He has a better plan for me and you. He wants us to be blessed and be a blessing to others. In Him I put my trust.